Saturday 29 September 2007

Keep hanging on....



On the roads of love what blows have I taken
All my dreams broke, a cloudiness has come about
Every happiness has gone to sleep and my life is lost now
I fell in love with you once again so I received punishment
Is this what people get when they respect true love
Or is it only me who experience such a blow

In my dreams I had seen a shawl
In my hands now the glass of broken dreams
Are piercing my eyes but still looking out for you
Even the woozing blood distrupts my vision
Yesterday someone was here, now there is no one
My breath is wavering like that of a snake
What a special experience this loneliness has given me
How many tears it has brought upon my lashes
How many times my heart has wrecked so far now

Why did I have such a hope
That was so unfulfilled
I made my destination far
So only to lose the light half way through
Now where do I go, who do I explain it to
Expect somone to share the pain,
Who cares.... of course certain people do
But is that what I preferred ?
What I wanted and why in my destiny came
Loneliness, loneliness, like a smokestorm of darkness
I always liked to be liked by others
But things aren't always as what we preferred

Being lonely is not a new thing for me
All my life I have enjoyed equally
The two extremes of life
A lonely tree which is thick
Hard to have a broken heart
A tiny flower blossoming along
With thousands of other flowers
Its been always same for me...
And after all such experience,
I prefer to be alone exploring more
No matter others call me Mr. Lonely
I love to keep hanging on to this loneliness...
Oh Love, Oh Loneliness , What have you done to me ?

They may forget...



There were days where we knew each other
Still were minding our own work schedule
Never thought that we might meet again
As the Life is a full of uncertainities
We met again in a much more similar scenario
Can't guess whether its fate or coincidence
The things we preferred and liked
Seem to match, but still that looked the same
All nothing but a series of incidents
As tiny drops make an ocean
These moments slowly built our relationship
But where did it take us to ?
A life of miserable events
As usual hurting more the men's life

Feeling a bit jealous of such women
Who can blame the fate and carry on with their lives
I have been warned several times
Not to believe in women's love
But I was also advised not to generalise
I want to take the shame and blame
When things go wrong because of my choice
Where I always preferred to take a chance
As this life with love will have few thorns
But a life without it will have no roses

I can't guess whether she loved me truly
But all I should be content with is
My true and sincere love for her
Never guessed anyone could love so blindly
Yet been hurt before a few times
Love is a crazy thing, where your brain don't work
Love is a like a song and you dance to it
Once you have completely thrown yourself into it

She says that she loved me from bottom of her heart
Is that true or Was it true ?
No matter whats had been said or done
Its now the past in my love history
Angels come in , fall in love and leave so quick
Love and me are sailing on the opposite sides of the sea
All I need now is to get hold of the sails
So that I could make things work for me

What did I do to her ?
What did she do to me ?
Can't say whether I have caused the same pain
As she caused me with her expressive feelings
Never guessed anyone to be more sincere than me
Now she has blown away my ego
But what she says now...
Were they all just words and nothing from her heart
How could they do it ?
Or were they all true straight from her soul
Doesnt matter what she is feeling now
SHE MIGHT FORGET WHAT I HAVE SAID ALL THESE DAYS
BUT HOPE SHE WILL NEVER FORGET HOW I MADE HER FEEL

Friday 28 September 2007

What does she want ?



She doesnt want me to feel for the past
She doesnt want me to cry out my stress
She doesnt want me to speak out to people
She doesnt want me to think about it
What does she want me to do then ?
She says she is still a human with feelings
And who am I then, an ET from mars ?

She says not to generalise women
But now she has again joined the same elite group
Ditching and playing with men's life
Its not the matter whether you play it safe or not
Its all that matters where you are gonna hurt

Pick the men before you play,
Tell you what , no matter how cruel men where before
They wont be the same after they have fallen in love
Love is the cruel thing when its doing the killing
And its for sure that men can't take it as the way women do.
All she wants is my death and my resurrection.... Not again...

Wednesday 26 September 2007

Will she BMW ?



Though I have been presented a Bayerische Motoren Werke
I still can't enjoy the right pleasure
There were years when I was dreaming about driving such cars
And now its here, but guess what ?
These don't amuse me anymore
There were days when I was thinking of marrying her
Guess what ? It has not changed so far
Will she be the angel of my heart ?
Will she be the sweetest thing in my life
Will she Be My Wife ? Will She BMW ?

Sun signs for us

Love Match for Us



When we come together in a love affair, there is a congenial and even-tempered romance. These two Signs are very compatible, making for a truly smooth-sailing love affair. Both Signs are attuned to life's aesthetic side, but they also have much to offer one another: When I get lost in a fantasy, she can apply her proclivity for balance to help get me back on track, and I can return the favour by helping her see the beauty in love and empathy. This is an honest partnership that values truth and harmony in itself and in the world.

We make great friends as well as lovers. We understand one another: Both can be indecisive and tend to work in multiple directions at once. Problems between us are rare, but she can at times be too mentally manipulating for me. Sometimes we can also stop mid-action due to both of our indecisive natures; if we work on a project together -- either their love relationship or something else -- it can be difficult to get it to move forward. If we do have an argument, we do tend to forgive and forget quickly: She abhors conflict and will do almost anything to avoid it, and I possess great empathy and can forgive out of understanding for her position.

She is ruled by Venus (Love) and I'm ruled by Jupiter (Luck) and Neptune (Illusions). These Signs are quite compatible due to the feminine energies of Venus and Neptune working in tandem. Under Jupiter and Neptune's rule, I'm intensely meditative, philosophical and internal. Under Venus's influence, she is in love with love. Her sun sign is the sign of Partnership and always is more comfortable when in an intimate love affair.



***** Woman & Pisces Man
This match can last for a while but it is very unlikely to last or become a true love. The relationship between a Pisces boy and ***** girl can start out with incredible romance. He is a dreamer with his head in a fantasy world, and a deep need for love and passion. You share his need for a deep and meaningful love, but you're a bit flighty and airy too. The problem here is that there is no balance. Each of you needs to be paired with a strong personality who can balance your ethereal tendencies. Unfortunately, you won't find that balance together. You each need a different kind of partner to make a relationship work. There will also be clashes because you both like the world to revolve around you- and there's only one world to go around. You two are a little too self-involved to look out for each other the way you should. A match that is not made to last.

***** girl is such an asset to Pisces boy-he's your dream project, and in him you see great potential. He's one of the most romantic signs of the zodiac, and you both share an extraordinary love of music and beauty. Problems should only arise when you approach matters from an intellectual standpoint, and he's guided by his heart.

Truth of LIFE



In life I dont trust people anymore
Who chage their feelings with time
Instead I trust people whose feelings remain the same
Even when the time changes

We make them cry who care for us
We cry for those who never care for us
Also we care for those who will never cry for us
Truth of life is very strange but true and
Once we realise this, it never too late to change

I prefer not to explain myself to anyone
Because the person who likes me doesn't need it
Person who dislikes me won't believe it
I don't want to let anyone become a priority in my life
When I'm just an option in their life
Relationships work best when they are balanced.

Whatever we give to life, it gives us back
So I do not want to hate anybody
The hatred which might come out from me
Will someday come back to me for sure
So I do love others and Love will comeback to me

For everything I have missed, I have gained something else
Also for everything I have gained, I have always lost something else
It is all about our outlook towards life
All you could do is either regret or rejoice

The most difficult phase of life
Is not when no one understands us
But when we don't understand ourselves
Arrow goes forward only after pulling in to backward
Bullet goes forward only after pressing the trigger backward
As such every human being will be happy
Only after facing the difficulties in their life
And I'm not afraid to face my difficulties
Which are only gonna push me forward

I know that I'm born to live unlike others
Who live because they are born
I want to take the life the way I go
Not go the way life takes me to

What we are today is result of our own past actions
Whatever we wish to be in future depends on our present actions
Having decided how I have to act now
Things aren't that stressful some how
We are responsible for what we are,
whatever we wish ourselves to be
We have the power to make ourselves
I think I have got the power in me

Over the same, on the same winds
A ship sails in one direction, another in opposite way
Its not the wind that decides which direction the ship goes
Its the sails, how they are tied and how they are maneuvered
Same as it is not FATE that decides where your life is going
It is all about how we take life and where we take it to...

Tuesday 25 September 2007

The Story repeats.... How Funny.....



Finally there rung the bell
Not the one in the temple
Not the one in the church
But from the telephone this time
After a long phase
Reason behind it, the same story....

Expectations sound to be silly,
Me after going after Gods,
Highly impossible...
People prefer religious personalities
Rather true human beings
World is heading to a strange stage
where characters are no more important but beliefs

She says she is happy
But still feeling bad about me
If she is not interested in me
Whats the point in giving me a bell
Does she want me to goto hell
I'm a person who would be happy even in hell
She wants me to smile, but how could I
She wants to not to be sad just because of her
She wants me not to feel for anything
What all she wants ? Me to be really happy
Never, she wants to put up a fake face

Who is she to advice me ?
What is she to me in my life
An angel from my perspective view
And a normal girl from hers
Things are not true from her end she says
Can't see that we get along in the future
Is she a priest ? Then why she was in love
Explains me that she is too a human
Have feelings for me too
But can't get along with me together in life
How funny,,, funny my life for others
She came in, my heart blossomed
She filled up my heart with her feelings
She then left away like a lightning
Leaving my heart bleeding

How could she do this to me
I Don't expect her to love me
I Don't expect her to be my friend
At least I expect her not to hurt me
She can't be my lover girl
She can't be my good friend
What does she want then ?
Also she keeps adding that she is happy
She doesnt love me at all
All she has is a sympathy now
Let me take this in the right way
I don't want to feel sorry for myself
I don't want to pity myself
I'm more better than before
I'm living a better meaningful life

All I wish to ask her only one thing
Promise me that she will always be the same
No matter what destiny brings for us
She will always NOT be my LOVE
Men's words are words and not like women's
Never in my life... Lying .... Atleast for couple of years
Let me not love yet another girl
Let me keep my heart safe
How funny, theres nothing to guard
My heart is broken to pieces
All I have to do is mend it to look like the same
Which could love again someone in my life
Infact build my heart to bear the blows

Sunday 23 September 2007

You know me more .......



Clouds are not the burden for the sky
As same as I'm to your life
The colours of the rainbow couldnt be wiped our by rain
As same as the mother's affection wouldn't hurt her kids
The breeze wouldn't kill the flowers
As same as my feelings and love wouldn't hurt you

Its bad when you realise the one you love
Is happy with someone else for sure
More hurtiing is when you realise
They are not happy being with you
Its pathetic for the moon to let go its light
As same as the seashore without the waves

Looks as if i'm overreacting to the situations
Hope atleast you could understand me
As you know more better about me
Wish you shut my heart's door with your key
Oh what could i say, I'm so lucky
Yes, I'm Mr.Lucky and thats what I wanna be....

Whats possible ?


Its not easy to harvest in a land which is not fertile
But it was possible for me to love yet again
Never thought I would fall again
Oh whats happened to me....
Is that easy to follow your heart beats
Which always lead to a big scar
Even though I prefer a happy heart
I'm still content with a heart with stitches
Its nice to be loved and be thrown away
Not because I was too good for the relationship
It was possible for me to love again
Again and again and again....

Its not easy to break someone's heart
Which needs more courage to proceed on with it
If it was possible to break up with the one we love
Is it not possible to make things work together
Is love that weak to handle situations
Thought love was stronger than anything
I know its true where things are much more safe
but why its not the same in everyone's life
Preference are given to the social outlook
Rather the true and inner happiness
Its not easy to cheat our own feelings
Saying this is not the one you are gonna get
It was possible to get rid of something
Which could make you feel more better than before
Yes it was possible to hurt the heart so quick
That too by an innocent heart which thinks its so thick

Its not easy to find the right relation for us
But it is always possible to make things work
No matter the best or worst, its all we who sort things
Its not gonna be the same love again
You have broken not just my heart
But our love which was so graceful
More true than the mother's love to her kids
Its not easy to fix it by any means
But it is possible to share the pains
All I wished was you to be happy
Sorry for disturbing your peace of mind
I take the credit for spoiling your happiness
Yes I'm a sadist as others portray me
I love hurting people in one way or the other
Its not me who says so...
My history has incidents, there were many innocent people
Many more than the number system, which is still undefined
Longing for my love and affection
And I turned all them down
As I thought I'm not gonna love again and
Thought love and me are not the ones to go together

Now its my turn and I take it with a sweet smile
What else could i do...
Its not easy to keep smiling when ur heart is bleeding
But it is possible atleast not to let others know ur pain
Its always nice to smile when u long to cry
Yes its a good experience to me
I would be always thankful to you
Your relationship both the better and the bitter
Would never hate you for any reason
For having made me love yet another time
For having made me live a better life
For casting me more into fire
Just to purify me more...
Life is such a wonderful thing and as i say always
Life is not what we think it is.
It is always possible in life to meet the uncertain things.
Yes LIFE IS A CYCLE OF UNCERTAIN THINGS !!!

Saturday 22 September 2007

All I Could do.....



Baby, the love we used to share
Has faded day by day
And now you wanna leave me
So you are looking for away
And if you see a tear in my eye
It's not for you I cry

Don't you know I tried to make our love
Like every love should be
You say it isn't enough
So you're walking out on me
But if you can't find just what you want
Don't you come running back to me
For it will be too late for both of us
Though I would be still waiting for you

Baby, I know you think I'm at home
Crying the blues, but remember sweetheart
Somebody else will want what you couldn't use
Can't guess when will I stop loving you
Oh baby, I don't know, I don't know
All my friends give me advice
They say hang on man
Ooh, but I want her
Keep hanging on , Oh come on
I don't need her

The clock didn't stop ticking
Because you let me be
Time will let nobody
Take your love from me
I know you wanna be
With someone for yourself
But I know you don't want me
To be with no one else
This is what the problem with me
Can't believe our love was all but false

A girl stepped once in my life,
Said she loved me....
Sang songs along with me,
Finally one day said I was not True to her
Say what ? I WAS NOT TRUE TO HER

Few years later another similar girl
Breezed into my life like a sweet smell
Showed what life is , more better than before
Thought I made a mistake at the first place
With that experience found the true love at the end
Very soon there came the same old set
She is gone as well, but this time the reason
I DIDNT KEEP HER HAPPY, say what ?
I WAS CRUEL TO HER.

Whats happened again now....
An angel not a girl this time...
Oh whatever, love is blind can't guess
Which one is an angel or a demon
For that matter she is not that cruel
Loved me more than anyone has been before
Oh what could i say , I felt being loved more
I thought I was lucky once again
Knowing the fact luck doesnt knock at our door
More than once and now its here again
Getting back the same true heart
Having enough love and affection
Wasn't enough.... wasn't enough....
Just wasn't enough ..... need something more
On top of all these natural feelings
One should be more wealthy
To make his wishes happen for sure
But as its not the case
She has again left me , once for all
And what did she say now....
She has got commitments in life...
Say what ? I'm an useless guy without the same...

Its hard to believe, for the third time in life
Having shared the feelings from beginning till end
No one can still understand
What I'm really worth for
But still I will be there for you
If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I will be there in a hurry
On that you can depend and never worry
I know you must follow the sun
Wherever it leads, but remember
If you should fall short of your desires
Remember life holds for you one guarantee
You will always have me
And if you should miss my loving
One of these old days
If you should ever miss the arms
That used to hold you so close, or the lips
That used to touch you so tenderly
Just remember what I told you
The day I set you free
There isn't no mountain high enough
There isn't no valley low enough
There isn't no river wild enough
To keep me from you

Most of my life
I have walked all alone
In search of a star
You are that star
You are the one I have been waiting for
All my life, there was always a song to sing
A chorus for two
All that love can bring
I'll share here with you
You can make it all come true
All of your life to share
Is all I'm asking
All of the minutes and the years
All of your happiness
And sometimes all your tears
I know its not gonna work
There is always someone for everyone
Made for each other, can't say they are the best
It is what they choose to have
People are more focussed on social outfit
Who cares for the personal benifit
All I could do so is feel sorry for them
All I could do is still wait for her

Feel sorry for you

Baby, the love we used to share
Has faded day by day
And now you wanna leave me
So you are looking for away
And if you see a tear in my eye
It's not for you I cry

Don't you know I tried to make our love
Like every love should be
You say it isn't enough
So you're walking out on me
But if you can't find just what you want
Don't you come running back to me
For it will be too late for both of us
Though I would still waiting for you

Baby, I know you think I'm at home
Crying the blues, but remember sweetheart
Somebody else will want what you couldn't use
Can't guess when will I stop loving you
Oh baby, I don't know, I don't know
All my friends give me advice
They say hang on man
Ooh, but I want her
Keep hanging on , Oh come on
I don't need her

The clock didn't stop ticking
Because you let me be
Time will let nobody
Take your love from me
I know you wanna be
With someone for yourself
But I know you don't want me
To be with no one else
This is what the problem with me
Can't believe our love was all but false

A girl stepped once in my life,
Said she loved me....
Sang songs along with me,
Finally one day said I was not True to her
Say what ? I WAS NOT TRUE TO HER

Few years later another similar girl
Breezed into my life like a sweet smell
Showed what life is , more better than before
Thought I made a mistake at the first place
With that experience found the true love at the end
Very soon there came the same old set
She is gone as well, but this time the reason
I DIDNT KEEP HER HAPPY, say what ?
I WAS CRUEL TO HER.

Whats happened again now....
An angel not a girl this time...
Oh whatever, love is blind can't guess
Which one is an angel or a demon
For that matter she is not that cruel
Loved me more than anyone has been before
Oh what could i say , I felt being loved more
I thought I was lucky once again
Knowing the fact luck doesnt knock at our door
More than once and now its here again
Getting back the same true heart
Having enough love and affection
Wasn't enough.... wasn't enough....
Just wasn't enough ..... need something more
On top of all these natural feelings
One should be more wealthy
To make his wishes happen for sure
But as its not the case
She has again left me , once for all
And what did she say now....
She has got commitments in life...
Say what ? I'm a useless guy without the same...

Its hard to believe, for the third time in life
Having shared the feelings from beginning till end
No one can still understand
What I'm really worth for
But still I will be there for you
If you need me, call me
No matter where you are
No matter how far
Just call my name
I will be there in a hurry
On that you can depend and never worry
I know you must follow the sun
Wherever it leads, but remember
If you should fall short of your desires
Remember life holds for you one guarantee
You will always have me
And if you should miss my loving
One of these old days
If you should ever miss the arms
That used to hold you so close, or the lips
That used to touch you so tenderly
Just remember what I told you
The day I set you free
There isn't no mountain high enough
There isn't no valley low enough
There isn't no river wild enough
To keep me from you

Most of my life
I have walked all alone
In search of a star
You are that star
You are the one I have been waiting for
All my life, there was always a song to sing
A chorus for two
All that love can bring
I'll share here with you
You can make it all come true
All of your life to share
Is all I'm asking
All of the minutes and the years
All of your happiness
And sometimes all your tears
I know its not gonna work
There is always someone for everyone
Made for each other, can't say they are the best
It is what they choose to have
People are more focussed on social outfit
Who cares for the personal benifit
All I could do so is feel sorry for them
All I could do is still wait for them

Friday 21 September 2007

Feelings for you ..........

If you are not big enough to lose
You are not big enough to win
I have lost a couple already
Its time for me to win so be ready
The important thing is to love
Rather than to be loved
I have felt the same, Do you ?

A ship in the harbour is safe
but that is not what ships are built for
Same as hearts are safe if its not let gone
but that is not what heart is made for
Person could survive physically if a brain is dead
But not definitely if his heart is arrested
Thats why people relates love to heart rather than brain
But people still are after their brain
Confusing themselves with relationships
Oh what could I do apart from feeling sorry for them

The secrets of happiness is to make others
Believe that they are the cause of it
What bliss is all about is to make others
Feel what they are to you...
Destiny is not the matter of chance we wait for
But a matter of choice we make

Its just too late to say sorry
May be you should have tried a little sooner
May be you should have thought before you acted then
We wouldn't be in this situation in the first place
Now it is just a little too late to go back
Nothing is going to ever make this right again
I'm sorry I can't be the one to forgive you
But we have been through this too many times
And I don't want to hear your apologies
As they cut my heart, slit my throat
Knowing that its all just another lie
I know you can't live without me
But you are worried without giving a try

The title of a very best friend
Is given to precious few
The ones who give love and support
In all that they say and do
The ones you call to dry your eyes
Build your confidence up or
Even to just chat for a bit
If only to say "Whats up?"
The extreme importance of a very best friend
Can't be measured in any way
Except in the actions you show to them
And in every word that you say
That is how I know my friend
From all that you have done and do
That the title of my very best friend
Is deserving only for you ! ! !

Sorry for what ?

Who do you think you are, leaving me stranded
You've gone too far, you're too demanding
How many times, how many chances
Should I let you take me for granted
You believed that love is a silly word
Before you break my heart
Let me get my head start
But when you're leaving don't forget to say no goodbye to me
Don't come back to me this time saying you're sorry, that you love me
And when you're leaving don't forget to leave your past away
Don't think I can't take care of me
You'll be sorry, you'll be sorry
That's what hurts me more and more
Life is not as what you think
Would shower more pain before we wink

You had my soul but you went past it
So in control, so demanding
When you were mine, thought it would've lasted
Even though you're fine, don't think I can't manage
This is not the first time
When someone has been true to me
Thanks for being a good mate
I would take this as the fate.
You are good I know you are
but lies and deceat, they won't get you far
my victory being true to you is your defeat
and you're not gonna get the credit you need
Be true to you and not the others
Ask you heart what to do rather your brain
What am i gonna ask you, after all this pain
Fingers crossed, hearts barred, brain dead,
All I wished was to be your best friend,
And you silly girl couldnt even understand
You will feel sorry for yourself,
Like the others do that to themselves.

I love you more than before
Not because you were good to me
Just becase you are still a silly girl
Who keeps confusing things on and on
Its nice to be with you sharing the pain
But that was more than a personal gain
Love and life is not like what we think
It comes and goes no matter how we try to stop
Its not in our hands what we do
I could have easily made you feel better
Pulled you back to the same relationship
But love is not what we demand
Its natural straight from the heart
More powerful than anything else
No matter they are dozens of Gods,
They are all but foot to our heart
A Powerful heart has its own world
Thanks for letting me know
I have a weak one the weakest among all

Empty bottles on the window pain
They have been lying there for days
The clock on the wall ran out of batteries
It's been like its been there for weeks
Tripping by myself on lazy afternoon
I've got all of me thinking about you
Why do I still keep looking at my phone
Are you gonna ring me one day....
Not for the time being i know for sure
But could u all say...
A big sorry once again ?
Dont feel sorry for me honey
Its you whom i'm worrying all about
Wish you get the best among all
Please do not think I hate you to the core
More silly you are,More I love you than before.

Is she my Angel ?

Walking along the beach I suddenly stop
Sitting down I get lost in myself
Talking I suddenly fall silent
Is this my sincere love for you

Can't guess Why I die for you
Don't know Why I do this
In narrow streets I walk along trying to hide
From the whole world , I seem to be afraid

The world is full of hatred,
Even then hearts will desire
Even if they die , get bashed out
The ones who love, their love will stay alive
Forever and ever, no matter what happens

My angel has stolen me from myself
Hidden me somewhere in her heart
Being alone , fear I might get lost
Far from her , I might go
The she comes closer to me
To put her arms around my neck
Thought it was pure love
Later realised it was just to strangle
Like a mom killing her baby
Inspite the kid weeping for mercy
Is this what we call love
Is she my Angel ?
Hard to say yes, as she is helpless
Don't have any other option
As she performs a mercy killing rather
Than a strangling cruel massacre.

Where are you ?

Oh my Angel why did you step into my life
Making my eyes blind to have no more vision
The moment you showered the light
My life was torn into pieces
Not because it was too harsh
But was very much kind
My hurt heart couldnt bear its bliss

You are my only thoughts
The moment I wake up each morning
Checking for the missed calls and messages
Dropping like a dead man back to my bed
Feeling your voice which only still remains
Screaming and yelling my feelings were dead
Awaiting you back keeping my eyes open
With flames set off to show you my pain

There was a time when the world was waiting for the first rain
Like the Gods who were waiting for the festival to begin
Same as the poets who were longing for the best of his lyrics
But if do the same awaiting your return, my love would still prolong
Wish I had never seen you in my life
Let me not beat about the bush once again
Can't guess whether to follow the prophet's words
letting the love to go away and awaiting its return
Will you come back to me ? ? ?
Only if its true that you love me to the core
Only if you can't live without my presence
In the love's war I can't die so soon
If so atleast I wish you are my last vision

Thursday 20 September 2007

Time ! The Best Medicine

Its been a mirage what ever i have felt and seen
A castle built with all my dreams
blown away just by a small breeze
Could see trees,branches including the flowers of love
but very unfortunate couldn't smell is fragrance
Couldnt see even my foot traces on the way i have walked through
As same as I couldnt see how i started the relationship with you
The moments when we shared the bliss and our pain
Seem to be just like an unsolvable riddle

We could change our lives once again
Even can come closer by feeling each other
Truth's painful scar would still remain
We could change our clothes, wear new outfit
Move to a new place, laugh forgetting the past
The tears our hearts shed would still not stop
Thanks for letting me to have the chance again
To Realise the love's feel after a many years
To live the same old wonderful life
Couldn't remember my childhood days with my mates
Theres no limit for your love's feelings
As I long to cry hugging you once again.

The cycle of life could meet again
Not the lovers love once its broken
Reading through one of my best poems
Could find flaws not just one but many
Death could only kill a person only once
This Cruel love kills me for every glance of her
The dreams i dreamt of her with me
Days and nights with her beside and over me
These memories are more than enough
Until I rest in peace....
Thank you, Thanks ever so much
For being a part of my life

Though I could understand that
Moments which we shared together for years
couldnt be wiped out with just our tears
The trees which shed the flowers
Would do the same once again
As the sun rises every day
Its all about the matter of time
As I always feel
Time is really the best medicine.....
Why don't I grow old soon.....

Life changes its beauty all the time

Life changes its beauty all the time
Sometimes it's a shade, sometimes it's a sunlight
Live every moment here to your heart's content
The time that is here may not be tomorrow

One who loves you whole-heartedly
It is difficult to meet that person
If there is someone like that somewhere
That person is more beautiful than all Us
Grab onto that (person's) hand
She may not be so gracious tomorrow
Live every moment here to your heart's content
The time that is here may not be tomorrow

Taking the shadow of your eyelashes, when someone comes near
You try to reason with your crazy heart
Your heart just goes on beating
But think, that which is here now
That story may not be here tomorrow
Life changes its beauty all the time

Heres the last chance yet again offered....
Who is gonna take it and
Who is gonna leave it ?

Wednesday 19 September 2007

Yet another bad patch

Hate myself for being so weak
When it comes to women and love
These couple of days have made me feel
A relatinship of a decade or two old
Can't blame her for any reason
She is my angel and the lucky star
What can you say when she is in love
All she could do is nothing but love
Its the same old story
Receiving proposals from girls
who could only love but can't marry
wishing to be with me for the whole life
Only ending up saying which is practically impossible

Thought I could be happy even in hell
but this heavan made me feel the hell
Why feel the paradise and lose the same all at once
when butterflies were flying inside my stomach
Bells were ringing inside my heart
Bulbs were glowing in my thoughts
Guessed they were the feelings for a day or two
only till she disclosed her love for me
Never spent time with anyone so long
All which ended with a final note
Fast and furious there went the blow
Straight to my heart deep into the veins
What could she do apart from letting it go
Theres no love not any more....

All she could say that she loves me to the core
It has happened to me before
Can't think a life without me
still Same as before
Ended it by saying lets not proceed any further
and wave a big BYE to each other
forcasting a better welfare
I would have been alright if it was her own decision
but why the hell her mates do pop in to spoil
Isn't there anyone who could respect my feelings
I dont wanna pull anyone into a relationship
What else could i do....
Give her hopes that I would set all things right
I just dont wanna do it again
Had enough in life so horrid and devastating
All I was longing for is someone
who would love me more than anyone else
and all I receive are the ones
who keep me hurting more and more

She is not confident in convincing people
where she is weak in making decisions
all she could do is run far away from me
where it was her who was interested more in the relation
Though i said its not easy
for which she agreed to it
But things went on and on
Shared more secrets and felt more close
Shared our feelings and felt more better
Felt we are the match for each other
After the end of that longlasting call
There goes the thunderstrom
BOOM !!! She goes she doesnt wanna hurt me more
Let us stop talking no more...

Been only few hours since that massacre
Life is not at all what we think
This pause after many years
Has made the tears roll out from my eyes
What an angel could do to me
In just a matter of couple of days
Its all matter of time as my friend used to say
Time is the best medicine for all the heartbreaks

Thanks for the friends who were with me
Whenver I had a problem or two
Thanks for being my friends and these are not just words
but a world of it...

I'm waiting for you Baby ..........

Dont play with my heart
You can stop my heart
Love is here and now youre gone
Oh please, dont tear apart
Honey, I am so alone
Were looking on the same stars
And on the same moon
What have I done to you , baby
Oh, wherever you are - please come back soon
Cant you see Im waiting for you

Don't do that again
If you tear it apart - I cannot be your friend
Don't play with my heart
Again and again
If you tear it apart
How this love will end
Oh you know its true
I gave you every single day
Now, its up to you
Baby, please dont go away
Oh well find paradise
And well loose it all
What have I done to you, baby
Dont tell me no lies
Just give me a call
Can't you see Im waiting for you

All the messages which you sent me
Inch by inch its just killing me
Each and every moment
I'm Checking my mobile
For all the missed calls and the mail inbox
All i could see is full of pain
which is just because my efforts are in vain
Learnt a lesson in my life
Yet another time by my wife
Oh what I'm saying when you are no more in my life
Can't believe its because of you
I'm not blaming you for your love
Its pathetic which I can't have
Can't you see I'm waiting for you

You are my heart, you are my soul
Have a feeling that our love will grow
I keep it shining everywhere I go
I will be holding you forever, stay with you together
Thats the only thing I really know
Feel my heart is burning, when the night is turning
Your love is like a thunder
Im dancing on a fire, burning in my heart
Oh baby Im not a hunter
Your love is like the desire, burning in my soul
Your love is like the heaven, its so hard to find
Your love is like a river, flowing in my mind
You packed your things in a big bag
Left and never looked back
Can't you see I'm waiting for you

I see you on the street and you are walking by
You make me want to hang my head down and cry
If you gave me half a chance youd see
My desire burning inside of me
But you choose to look the other way
Leaving me alone in a drastic bay
I think that you are afraid to look in my eyes
You look a little sad angel, I wonder why
I follow you around but you can't see
You are too wrapped up in yourself to notice
So you choose to look the other way
Well, Ive got something to say
Open your heart, Ill make you love me
Its not that hard, if you just turn the key
Can't you see I'm waiting for you ! ! !

Love Hurts but still can't help falling in love

Love hurts, love scars,
Love wounds, and marks,
Any heart, not tough,
Or strong, enough
To take a lot of pain,
Love is like a cloud
Holds a lot of rain

Im young, I know,
But even so
I know a thing, or two
I learned, from you
I really learned a lot,
Really really learned a lot
Love is like a flame
It burns you when its hot

I know it isnt true
Love is just a lie,
Made to make you blue
Love hurts yes the love hurts for sure.

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Sweetheart so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

When I want u in my arms when I want u and all your charms whenever I want u
All I have to do is dream,dream,dream,dream
When I feel blue in the night and I want u to hold me tight whenever I want u
All I have to do is dream,dream,dream,dream
I need u so that I could die I love u so
And that is why whenever I want u all I have to do is
Dream,dream,dream,dream,dream,dream,dream

Silence floats into the room
Whispers to me out of tune
And I wonder if these deadly
Awkward moments stay
Stabbing their spikes in me
Will I start to bleed

Raise your eyes until theyre mine
Lift yourself towards the light
Your face looks like a waterfall to me
If I concede
What is it going to mean
Will I start to bleed

Magnectic field around your heart
Im sure I felt the engine start
But what if all the fuel runs out
Glad I didnt stay with you
So much more for me to do
But something is missing for sure
Will I start to bleed good time

Love or Infatuation

(1) Do I treat the other person as a person or a thing?
If you go out with him/her because he/she is good looking (a "prize" to be with) or a way out (a ticket to the movies), that isn't love.

(2) Would you chose to spend the evening alone with him/her if there were no kissing, no touching, and no sex?
If not, it isn't love.

(3) Are the two of you at ease and as happy alone as you are with friends?
If you need other friends around to have a good time, it isn't love.

(4) Do you get along?
If you fight and make up a lot, get hurt and jealous, tease and criticize one another, better be careful, it may not be love.

(5) Are you still interested in dating or secretly "messing around" with others?
If so, you aren't in love.

(6) Can you be totally honest and open?
If either or both of you are selfish, insincere, feel confined, or unable to express feelings, be cautious.

(7) Are you realistic?
You should be able to admit possible future problems. If others (besides a parent) offend you by saying they are surprised you are still together, that you two seem so different, that they have doubts about your choice, better take a good look at this relationship.

(8) Is either of you much more of a taker than a giver?
If so, no matter how well you like that situation now, it may not last.

(9) Do you think of the partner as being a part of your whole life?
If so, and these dreams seem good, that is an indication of love.

Tuesday 18 September 2007

Things made me love and long for her

The way she smiles
the way she speaks
the way she moves
the way she giggles
the way she talks through her eyes
the way she conveys through her body language
the way she nods when she doesnt know what to do
the way she says no when she likes something
the way she confuses herself easily for small things
the way she expects things
the way she asks stupid questions and demands the answers for the same
the way she longs for the uncertain happenings
the way she holds breath while speaking like a kid
the way she asks for clues when finding it hard to answer easy questions
the way she speaks out truly and frankly

many more to go on and on and on
and the best thing on top of all is
the way she is what she is .....

A Room in my Heart for YOU ! ! !



My heart was once just like a home
With many rooms and open doors
And I always let love in
It would change the rooms around and then
Leave them empty

Untill one by one I locked each door
And soon forgot what love was for
But I never gave up hoping
So I left just one door open
In case you found me

So there is a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you have had before
There is a room in my heart for you

We will paint the walls from blue to white
And set the mood by candlelight
Together we will keep out the cold
And I will still be there when we are old
If you will let me

So there is really a big room in my small heart for you for sure! ! !

Simran adds life to my world



its been days since
had a heavy heart
felt the need of the pillow
felt the stomach full
felt a poetic touch
killed the time longing for someone special
felt the presence of a lucky star
felt restless even while asleep
felt more ambitious than before
felt the life more better than before
oh what could i say...
this angel of my heart has added a life to my world.
Simran o Simran, where are you ?
things are not so far from you
a cute smile, a sweet sigh,
has made such a big difference...
all i could say is that this is not me
as i'm born once again ! ! !