By just keeping quiet, smiling a bit
you are burning my heart down to ashes
why did u crush my heart at the very beginning
Don't know who is playing with me
Either you or the almighty
Though others praised my love
To the purity of the natural gold
As that of the drops of the first rain
Day and night thinking of you
Scripting out numerous lines
What are these gonna do to me
Trying to draft out the music from the noise
What else could I do
When you shed your tears longing for me
Now its been a month out on the road
Touring down the university around
My head spinning always thinking of you
Looks like its going to explode one day
Something has got my face in a frown
As I can't stand the crying sound
Of the thunder that's crushing down
Stream of tears rolling down the cheeks
My reflection on the mirror looks different now
Though I'm walking far away from you
You are still growing bigger and bigger
Can't differentiate between
Loving, craving and needing someone
Which all has happened with you and me
then why are we still wandering around
Blaming others and their inconveniences
Guess I have nullified all my sins
By going through this hell of stresses
I just wanna be your shade even when its burning hot
Giving you enough comfort, though i would die slowly
Also I wish I was your shadow when you were lonely
Showing you that you are not alone when I'm there
The light of our love will sparkle even in the storm
walking on the thorns, burning in the fire
We would meet one day for sure
No matter who ever stops
Its between you and me to take it any further
At times I too felt like giving it up
As the pressure was building up
But the love I had for you made me strong enough
Since then everything else has changed
And I will never be the same as before
Being the lover gladiator, I will fight for your shore
Flowing like the tides again and again
Can't imagine yet another place to stay
Will you be mine as I always pray ?
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Will you be mine ?
Reminds me of you...
Whatever I do, wherever I go..
Its you and your words shower me
Is it not the same case with you
Who knows whats happening around
As far as we don't share anything
Its just an imagination of what it could be
Its not easy to fight the battle
All alone that too without a sword
With just the feelings by my side
What else could I do ?
Got only couple of choices to make
Either forget the past and go on
Or remain with the same stuff
Neither of these choices would be good
As far as I don't do anything towards it
The first choice might be easier
But might not be wise to choose
The second one is a bit tough at the beginning
But sure of making a history
Whats the point in pulling someone back
No matter whats the relationship
Love with the force will not last long
And me being a devotee of the lovely heart
Can't do anything which would hurt it
But my heart is humiliated now
Inspite different deviations
Its still singing the same song
Preaching the same words
Listening to the same music
Oh my goodness, whats love had done to me
She doesn't know how it hurts
As I don't express much about my feelings
Wish I always smiled at everything
Though have the confidence to reach it one day
Its all but a matter of time to pass by
Not by sitting idle, but winding up the chord
With strings of heartbreaks and wounds
Being more matured and static with the feelings
I will make the history in the world of love
As a soldier dedicating his life to the motherland
As a student obeying to his master
As a child surrendering to his parents' love
I will have an eternal life with the soul
Which I'm longing to be with
People might choose to be hanged to death
Slaughtered by slitting their throats
Instead of not being loved by their loved ones
Of all the options I have,
I wish to love you forever and ever
No matter whether its gonna give me a fruit
Or a hurricane uprooting the whole tree
My love's roots will go deep into my heart
So that even If I die, even if I'm erased from this world
My love for you will always be there in the history
I'm not a warrior to fight for something
I'm not a priest to let everything go as it is
I'm just a human being with feelings flowing in and out
All I wished is to get someone my heart loves to be with
It was someone before where I had a similar feeling
But later I realised it was not the perfect one
Even now I wish I would realise soon that you are not the one
Im looking forward to be with
I'm dying every day to talk to
Being a lover of music, your words always remains
As a tune that my heart beats
It will be a lie, If I say I HATE YOU
But wish at least you said me that once
So that I could go far away from you
Not to disturb you anymore
But will you tell me that YOU HATE ME TRULY ?
Sunday, 20 January 2008
Not again...
what sins i have made so far
To miss you so badly like this
Is loving you is a big sin
I wouldnt mind doing it for every second
I live in this social world
Nobody wishes me to be with you
No matter whether its human or the Gods
Why is it happening to me
It hurts me so bad that I have been cursed
It discourages me a lot, when i'm put aside
By the one whom i love a lot
Thought i would never feel for such a thing
But cant help it at all
Tried many ways to divert my mind
Inspite of exams and acid tests
Still your memories taunt me so pleasantly
Is Loving you so blindly wrong
Then whats right in here
Being genuine to my heart
All I did was, expressed what i felt
I have thought few times
That I can't live a life without you
Though its only for those two days
We spent together amidst all inconvenience
Without a touch, but with true feelings
Wthout you, my heart would take nothing
Can't edure the agony of separation
Still can't explain what this life would be
Without you by my side for the whole life
As long as I have the breath within me
I will love you forever
Though I sound like a poet sometimes
I would laugh at myself, asking for the reason
Without much time, I have fallen in love with you
This is what they call the church bells ringing behind
Butteflies flying in the stomach
Bulbs glowing in the mind
What so ever they might call it
I can't accept life without you
Hope it changes pretty soon
As the world might see big wars
In which I'm killed, so that my love will live for ever
In my words, in my scripts, one day
My love for you will be in the history
A love that doesnt want anything
A love that sacrifices itself for the love
A love which will be in my soul forever
What else could I say...
As many waves as there are in the sea
My love will be there floating on it
Touching your shore day and night
Missing you and yet again
Letting you know the same.
Sunday, 13 January 2008
Is Time Travel Possible ?
Some people may have heard about John Titors, the person who was coming back in time from the year 2036. He is said to have stayed here for a few years, making postings on the internet about what the future will be. Some say he was real, and some say he was not. But there is some very interesting things he had to say, if nothing more than for entertainment purposes. You can learn more at www.johntitor.com. A few of his quotes follow below:
JOHN - NOV 15, 2000: "Have you considered that your society might be better off if half of you were dead?"
JOHN - NOV 21, 2000: "How can you possibly criticize me for any conflict that comes to you? I watch every day what you are doing as a society. While you sit by and watch your Constitution being torn away from you, you willfully eat poisoned food, buy manufactured products no one needs and turn an uncaring eye away from millions of people suffering and dying all around you. Is this the "Universal Law" you subscribe to?
Perhaps I should let you all in on a little secret. No one likes you in the future. This time period is looked at as being full of lazy, self-centered, civically ignorant sheep. Perhaps you should be less concerned about me and more concerned about that.
What are your memories of 2036?
I remember 2036 very clearly. It is difficult to describe 2036 in detail without spending a great deal of time explaining why things are so different.
In 2036, I live in central Florida with my family and I'm currently stationed at an Army base in Tampa. A world war in 2015 killed nearly three billion people. The people that survived grew closer together. Life is centered on the family and then the community. I cannot imagine living even a few hundred miles away from my parents.
There is no large industrial complex creating masses of useless food and recreational items. Food and livestock is grown and sold locally. People spend much more time reading and talking together face to face. Religion is taken seriously and everyone can multiply and divide in their heads.
Life has changed so much over my lifetime that it's hard to pin down a "normal" day. When I was 13, I was a soldier. As a teenager, I helped my dad haul cargo. I went to college when I was 31 and I was recruited to "time travel" shortly after that. Again, I suppose an average day in 2036 is like an average day on the farm.
There is a civil war in the United States that starts in 2005. That conflict flares up and down for 10 years. In 2015, Russia launches a nuclear strike against the major cities in the United States (which is the "other side" of the civil war from my perspective) , China and Europe. The United States counter attacks. The US cities are destroyed along with the AFE (American Federal Empire)...thus we (in the country) won. The European Union and China were also destroyed. Russia is now our largest trading partner and the Capitol of the US was moved to Omaha Nebraska.
One of the biggest reasons why food production is localized is because the environment is affected with disease and radiation. We are making huge strides in getting it cleaned up. Water is produced on a community level and we do eat meat that we raise ourselves.
After the war, early new communities gathered around the current Universities. That's where the libraries were. I went to school at Fort UF, which is now called the University of Florida. Not too much is different except the military is large part of people's life and we spend a great deal of time in the fields and farms at the "University" or Fort.
The Constitution was changed after the war. We have 5 presidents that are voted in and out on different term periods. The vice president is the president of the senate and they are voted separately.
Why is time travel used?
Right now, its used to get information or "items" that would be helpful in getting a post WWIII world back to a normal condition.
I am here for personal reasons. For a few months now, I have bee trying to alert anyone that would listen to the possibility of a civil war in the United States in 2005. Does that seem more likely now? Actually it's quite amazing to see what's happening. I have been trying to get people to pay attention for the last few months but to see it unfold is very interesting. Before I leave, I'll try and post my report.
You assume I am here to start a war?
Consider this: You are a time traveler who wishes to go back in time to 1941 because your grandparents live close to Pearl Harbor in Hawaii. You realize you can't stop the war but you may be able to help them prepare for it. Strangely, December 7th comes and goes with no sneak attack. As the war in Europe rages on, Japan fails to join the axis power, there is no war in the Pacific and the United States remains neutral. Then, you watch as Germany begins to develop the atomic bomb all by themselves.
For a change, I have a question for all of you. I want you to think very hard. What major disaster was expected and prepared for in the last year and a half that never happened?
As far as war goes, I have faith you are quite capable of starting one all by yourself. I am hard pressed to accept any criticism on my outlook on that subject. Growing up might have been a vastly different experience for me than it was for most of you. Personal responsibility, determination, honor, friendship and self-reliance are not just words we try to live up to or fantasize about.
On my worldline, life is not easy. We live in a world recovering from years of war, poison, destruction and hate. All of it, courtesy of the thinking and actions of people that live right now in the same world you do, worrying about which stocks to buy or whether or not a stranger is lying to them on the Internet.
Imagine you are Jewish and you are able to travel back in time to Germany in 1935. All around you are the patterns of thinking and action that will lead to a great deal of harm, death and destruction in just a few years. You have the advantage of knowing what will come but no one will listen to you. In fact, they think you're insane and the situations you describe could never happen.
What I feel is not anger, it is sadness that you cannot see what I see.
After the war, much of the prejudice you have now was swept away by simple necessity. People had to work and fight together just to survive. This has a way of opening a person's eyes as to the value of fellow human beings.
What difference does the color of a man's skin make when you are both fighting against the same enemy to survive or find water or grow food? On my world line, if a man doesn't pull his weight in the community, then we feel prejudice towards him as a burden to us. This feeling of shame he experiences then makes him realize his responsibilities.